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Part 5
- Aubrey’s perspective -
I carefully brushed back my hair and put it up in a sloppy ponytail. I powdered my face, painted my eyebrows gently and slowly pulled a little mascara on my eye lashes.
I went to my room and put on a pair of jeans and a white comfortable white hoodie. Am I ready? I’m ready! I closed my two big bags and started to pull them out from my room, they were heavy. I met my mum in the hall, she was crying but she was smiling on the same time. “I can’t believe you’re going now” she said and hugged me. “Awh, mummy, it’s gonna be lots of fun” I said and looked into her eyes. “I’m proud of you hun” she said. “I need to go now, don’t want to miss the flight” I said and laughed. I pulled the bags out from the door. “Okay, be careful! I love you so much” she said and kissed my cheek. “I will be fine. Love you too mum, talk to you when I’m there. Bye!” I said and slowly closed the door after me.
- Niall’s perspective -
The weeks had went past very fast. Today Aubrey was arriving at the Heathrow airport. I wanted to surprise her at the airport. I just have to get there without my fans know about it, I want the moment. Liam looked at me and smiled, “are you looking forward to meet her again after so long?” he asked. “Definitely! I just need to find her, there’s always so much people at Heathrow and I don’t know how much she changed since I saw her the last time. Maybe I won’t recognize her…” I said. “You and her were so close, even if she changed style, hair color, yeah everything you will still recognize the face that made you happy” Liam said. I looked at Liam and smiled at him. Nothing to be worried about, everything to look forward to.
- Aubrey’s perspective -
I walked out from the terminal while I pulled the heavy bags after me. Good thing they have wheels. I was so tired after the flight and I was all by myself in London. I stopped, there’s so many people here, everywhere. I sighed and grabbed the bags to continue to walk. Suddenly someone covered my eyes with two hands. I turned around fast and met two light blue eyes and a huge smile. My heart skipped a beat. “Niall….Niall!” I looked at that familiar face. I just stood there, like frozen, staring at his smile. I didn’t know what to do, I felt how my heart was pounding every single second. “Aubrey” he said, with that voice that I’ve wanted to hear for months. I smiled and put my arms around him and he did the same and we just stood there, holding each other tight. It felt so comfortable. “I’ve missed you” Niall whispered in my ear. “I’ve missed you too, so much!” I said. I felt how my body got warm, I felt a smile on my lips and how tears slowly started to fall down my cheek to land on Niall’s shoulder. “I’m here now, okay? I’m not going anywhere. We are by our sides again, like we should Aubrey” Niall said quietly in my ear so no one else could hear, just me. Niall looked at my face, dried my tears, smiled and looked into my eyes then he hugged me tight again. “We have so much to talk about, so much to catch up. What have I missed? Any boyfriends?” Niall said and laughed. Eveything feels so good right now.
- Niall’s perspective -
I sat in my sofa, it was dark, it was over midnight. Everything was so quiet. All these feelings was running in my body. I just can’t give up with something that was so strong – our friendship. I could hear her laugh like an echo in my head, my stomach hurt because of the regret I feel. Aubrey should be a part of my life, she have always been there for me. Before I was famous. She’s not one of these people who want me because of my fame, she’s a girl that want me in her life because of our past. We’ve always been sharing thoughts, sharing smiles, sharing jokes, sharing lyrics, sharing candy, sharing secrets, sharing crushes, sharing food, sharing tears, sharing stories, sharing e v e r y t h i n g.
I took my phone and typed in ‘We should meet up when you’re coming, it was a long time ago since the last time I hugged you x’, I didn’t hesitate, I sent the text to Aubrey then I put the blanket over my face and fell asleep.
- Aubrey’s perspective -
I received the text message from Niall, I read it over and over again and I felt how my whole face started to smile. He want to meet me, he want a hug from me again. I sent back ‘It would mean the world for me, I miss you so much x’. I put the phone under my pillow and myself under the covers and fell asleep comfortably with a big smile on my face.
- Niall’s perspective -
Me and the boys ate breakfast this morning together at Larrys place. Me, Zayn and Liam sat in the big sofa. I was really tired, not so weird, I was up for too long. “When did you went to bed Niall?” Harry asked and sat down next to me in the sofa. “I fell asleep late, I thinking about Aubrey you know” I said, I didn’t want to lie. My best mates need to know about her. Harry looked at me with a little more serious face, “are you gonna meet her? She’s moving to London right?” I looked at Harry and nodded as an answer. “You should tell us a little about Aubrey” Louis came in, of course he heard about was we were talking about and it wouldn’t surprise me if Harry had said something about her to him. “Well…” I started. “Me and Aubrey was best friends before, we shared everything and helped each other with everything. She is in the same age as, last time I met her was when I was gonna start my X Factor journey, we been loosing contact since then” I said. “So, you were best friend with a girl?” Lou said, “nothing more?” he added. “No, nothing more. I know, I’m a boy and she is a girl and people think it’s strange that we were best friends and nothing more but it’s possible. A boy and a girl can be best friends” I said. “Do you miss her?” Zayn asked. “Yes. She’s moving to London now to start studying.” “Are you gonna meet her?” Lou asked. “Yes, hopefully I’ll be here when she’s coming” I said and looked down with a big smile on my face.
- Niall’s perspective -
I took a C on my guitar and continued with a F. “What song are you playing?” Liam asked. “No special, just playing some chords” I said and smiled at him. He nodded and walked away. I looked at Harry who stood a couple meters away from me, he flipped his hair and pulled his fingers through it, like he always do. He looked back at me and then he sat down next to me.
Suddenly my phone did a little sound and Harry grabbed it before I even reacted. “Don’t read my text message!” I said but of course Harry checked it. He gave me a surprised look on his face and swallowed. “Who’s the text message from?” I asked. He didn’t answer but gave me the phone and I read the name on the display – Aubrey Wallace. I read the text message – ‘I got accepted to the university, I’m moving to London x’. Not so weird why Harry reacted like he did, he know who Aubrey is, he know how close we were. We were the best friends ever and I think about her everyday. I got flashbacks in my head…
“Niall, never call a girl fat, remember that. It makes a girl insecure and you may hurt her forever, and don’t look at girls boobs, focus on her eyes instead!”
“Now they think I’m fake, yeah…” “…coz I’m not alone, no, no, no”
“Aubrey, what’s 5+16?” “It’s 21 Niall”
“Niall! Look, I bought you Nandos”
“My parents are fighting again, can I sleep at your place?” “Of course you can, stay as long as you need”
“Your the best friend ever, thank you”
- Aubrey’s perspective -
It was late, a couple minutes over midnight. I was laying in my bed and looked out through the window. The sky was dark and there was shining stars everywhere. My phone was next to me, Niall had not answer me. Niall I want you in you in my life, I’m not gone. I don’t want a goodbye. I’m lost without, I realize that now. I was complete with you, my best friend. I just wanted to tell him everything I felt right now but I was not good at expressing myself.
Thoughts was spinning in my head, I miss him so much, it’s crazy. I remember when we promised eachother to stand on eachothers sides for the rest of our life. Until death – and after death we will meet up in heaven. I felt tears slowly streaming out from my eyes. I don’t want this feeling anymore – the feeling of guilt. Maybe everything would have been like before if I had acted differently. I could see Niall’s bright blue eyes in front of me, in my mind. Like a piece of his soul was stuck in me. Don’t walk into my life if you intend to walk out of it. You just don’t walk into a life and leave trace and then disappear. Remember when I cried, remember when I was heart-broken, remember when you always was there to hold me close and make me happy all the times. Remember.
I lay there in my bed, looking at the stars, the clock was showing 2:30am. Then my phone vibrated. I took my phone and looked at the display. From Niall Horan, my heart jumped. I read the text while holding my breath… ‘I miss you Aubrey’
- Aubrey’s perspective -
I sat down on the comfy sofa in the living-room and checked through the post if something was to me. One was to me. I saw directly that it was about the university in London. I’ve been waiting on being accepted to start on a university after summer to study journalism. I have applied to attend a university in Dublin and one in London.
I opened up the envelope and pulled out the paper. I read through half of it then I moved my head to the bottom of the paper and it said “You’ve been accepted…”. I stared at the words and everything was spinning in my head. I am going to London, I am going to London. I need to call my friend Cassie and tell her to come over…
Cassie looked at me with a big smile “Oh my god Aubrey, you’re going to London!” she hugged me. “I gonna miss you so damn much babe, you have no idea. But I’m so happy for you” she added. “Friends forever” I said and smiled at her. “Yeah, I hope so, I don’t want to get in the same situation like you and Niall” she looked at me. I looked down. Niall. “Are you gonna contact him now?” she asked. My heart was beating faster. I miss him so much, oh god. Now we gonna live in the same city. “I…I don’t know. Should I?” Should I text him that I am moving. How is he gonna react. Good or bad…loads of different thoughts was spinning around in my head. “Do you miss him?” Cassie asked. I miss him more than anything, I miss my life when he was a part of it. I miss him. I miss him. I miss him. I miss him. “Yes…I miss him” I replied. “Then you should text him” she looked a bit surprised, surprised that I hesitated. “But what if…”
“What if what?” Cassie interrupted me before I could continue my sentence. “Aubrey, you and Niall have been friends forever. Do you think he don’t want you to be a part of his life?” she asked. “I don’t know, I don’t know if he miss me” I sighed. Niall I miss you so much. “Let’s find out if he miss you. You want him in your life and I bet he miss you. Text him” Since I met Cassie, she has always given me the right advice. I took up my iPhone from my pocket and typed in: ‘I got accepted to the university, I’m moving to London x’ “Should I send it?” It feels so weird to suddenly send a text to him. “Send it” she said. I read through the text again and took a deep breath – I clicked on send…
“It’s time for me to go, I’m sorry I need to leave you now” he hugged me and then looked into my eyes. I was tearing up. “Don’t cry beautiful, I’m not going to disappear from your life” he said. “I gonna miss you so much, I know you gonna have the best time of your life over there but it’s gonna be so boring here without you” I said. He smiled with that beautiful smile.“I’ll miss you too, I’ll miss you everyday”. He smiled at me and then he hugged me again, very tight this time. “Don’t dare to forget me” I said. “Never ever. I will never, never, never forget you, the friendship I have with you will never be the same with anyone else, I’ll text you as much as I can” he said. Then he had to go, the plane was waiting on him. He did the little hand shake with me that we started with in second grade, “I love you bestie” he said and waved at me. “I love you too, have fun!”. Then I saw him boarding the plane. Goodbye.
That was the last time I saw my best friend Niall. It was now eleven months ago. I’ve never seen him since then. He don’t have the time to meet me anymore. But I don’t blame him. He kept his promise, we was texting eachother for a while, not anymore. Our friendship is not the same. I miss him more than anything in the world, we’ve been best friends since 1st grade. We was always hanging out and sharing secrets, giving eachother advice, he told me everything I need to know about guys and I told him everything he need to know about girls. He was my best guy mate and we were so close. I still can’t believe he is so off from my life now. I don’t really want to ask him why this happened, we loosing contact and I know he have a busy life. His life is not the same, he is a singer in a boyband that makes girls scream and I have the same life – just without Niall – I go to school basically everyday. All day, everyday is the same for me. I always thinking about him and the stuff we always used to do, he was always there for me. I don’t know how our friendship is today, we haven’t meet on eleven months, eleven freaking months which is a long time – almost a year. He got four new best friends who he probably having a better friendship with then the friendship he had with me – so he lied about that and I said goodbye to my best friend I’ve ever had. I miss him more and more everyday…
